Tuesday, March 24, 2009

New Roof Day

Today is the day we have been dreading for a while, the house we purchased back in October is getting a new lid! A nice new dark brownish colored roof! I'm excited, mainly because it's one more thing to check off my list that is finished. I like getting stuff done. Roof should be done by the end of the week. The next step are two other roofs on our house. We decided to call in a historical type company to come in and see if we can take the other two roofs back to their original tin state. I'll let ya know how that goes.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Why is it

That the people in your life who treat you the worst, or would be the first to stab you in the back to save themselves, are the people to preach to you how you should act? I never understood that.
In my life, my own personal life, I have made an effort to welcome everyone, to help whoever I can that needs my help and to be a more open and honest person.

I will say that one other thing I have done is to keep those people who do exactly what I mentioned above, out of my life. For the very reason stated above, I chose to keep a distance from those people. Those people have hurt me in many ways, too many to go into detail.

I made an attempt, a small one, to crack open the door of communication....and bam...it was done again. Why does no one understand that but myself?

We just spent three weeks in church discussing forgiveness. I don't think I'm at that point yet. I understand the steps I need to take, the words I need to find to speak to these people, and I also know how great it will probably feel to tell these people they are forgiven...but I don't think I'm being honest with myself by saying those words.

So I think forgiveness...for me....has to wait.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

It's been a while.....

I'm in a funk....I really want the warmer weather. I see my seeds sprouting and calling me to plant them outside, yet I have to soothe them and tell them "not yet, but soon".

I want to get out and plant, compost, run around in the grass, sit on my porch and watch the kids play....this whole time change thing has me really bummed. I use to wake up with the sun, now I don't want to wake up and I'm really tired when I get home from work.

I'm hoping my hair cut today will change things. When my hair gets long, and thick, it frustrates me to no end. Here's hoping today's cut will enlighten and brighten my day.